I have put my body through hell and back. I have starved her, overfed her, hurt her, shamed her, hid her, ridiculed her, rejected her. I didn’t take care of her. She expressed what raged on the inside by shapeshifting, transforming into everything between an extra small and an extra large. I saw her through […]
They could be ghosts
- 25 September 2020
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I am seeing ghosts. They could be ghosts. My mind is playing tricks on me. I don’t know what would make me happier, the hazy drifting shapes around me to be from another world or for them to materialise into my fellow dharma students finding their way to the meditation halls. It’s moments before sunrise. […]
Going on 40
- 20 August 2020
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Me: ‘It’s my birthday!’ People: Hurrah! Me: ‘I am going on 40!’ People: ‘Euhm.. well don’t worry. You don’t look 40. And you are only 38, 40 is a ways off…’ Ageing is a curious journey. When I turned twenty, there was rejoicing. A celebration of adulthood, the world is your oyster kind of thing. […]
